Hello my little lovelies,
What a time to be joining a new project sharing thoughts on all things life and motherhood hey? It’s a funny old time in general globally as we sit in the midst of a shit-storm called Covid-19. Unprecedented really isn’t it? We watch, from a social distance of course, as friends and family delight or despair at the situations they find themselves in, often both within the same day. We feel the same sometimes, and other days we feel so polarised from their thoughts – it’s a rollercoaster for sure.
For us as a family the escalating virus brought a heart wrenching decision to leave our home behind in Pakistan – I mean seriously how did that even happen? How were we even there? That’s a whole other story, that I tried to document through photos of our journey over on instagram, a process to keep thoughts fresh in my mind and my heart, but really I need to write down in all it’s emotional glory.
We made it to England, where we have somewhere safe to rest and wait. But our hearts and minds are still wandering in far off lands. One of you has already exclaimed that you hate England and want to be back in India, and I know how you feel. So pulled in different directions. Grateful for the here and now. For space and heat and beds to sleep in. And oh how happy we are to be on the same timezone as grandparents and cousins – for Facetime storytime with the little ones, and catchup chats without planning and scheduling. But feeling displaced by being in a place that’s never been home to you.
We watch news updates avidly to see how things are in former homes; in China, in UAE and in India – people we love are there and they’re having a tough time. There’s some guilt that we’re in this beautiful land and can go for our walks once a day when we know exactly what it could feel like to be confined to a small apartment all together. We fear for the daily wage workers in India and Pakistan, who only feed themselves and their families if they sell enough that day. And how can they make sales in the middle of a lockdown? We contrast that to news stories from other lands of people stockpiling essentials, so they’ll be OK, and yet leaving other vulnerable people without. People (Governments even?) trivialising the severity of the situation and the risks essential workers are taking so that the consumerism show can go on. We know that we’re all dealing with this as best we can, and within the means we have at our disposal. Every situation different, and yet we’re all in this together somehow.
Time will tell how this changes us. And by us I don’t just mean our little family, I mean our small communities, and our larger humanity. I think in many ways it’s easier for us, we’re used to a simple life, to living with so little in our tiny van home, we’re used to being together 24/7 – even sleeping in a different room to you now feels strange – we’re used to being resilient and adapting to new ways of coping, to finding joy in nature or quiet moments, to not having online shopping and 150 television channels, to making do with what we have and mending what we need to, to treading as lightly as possible on our planet,. But I know it’s hard for you girls too – your present and future have both changed. They’re different to what we imagined and we can’t go back to being as we were again – that boat has sailed for our family now. But we’ll be OK, you’ll be OK. I believe in you, you’re a pair of tough cookies, with a global outlook, and hearts that encompass the universe, and those qualities will hold you in good stead. Through this, and the future.
I love you my girlie whirlies, Mama, xx
I’m hugely honoured to be joining Artifact Motherhood; a collaboration of artists from around the world who have come together to share our stories of the joys and struggles of our journey. Through our writings and visual records, we want to create memories that are more than photographs with dates written on the back. Started by Diana Hagues and Hollie Stokes, these posts are the artifacts we are leaving behind for our children and for generations to come. Please check out the next artist in our blog circle, the wonderful Lauren Webster, and continue through all the artists until you get back to me
April 2020 | Yorkshire | England
Caro - I am so honoured to be “standing next” to you in Artifact Motherhood. I look forward to your posts and beautiful photos on Instagram, we even the UAE, motherhood of 2 girls and Chloe in common ! I hope one day we meet. xx
Jess Cheetham - Nice to meet you Kirsty have you as part of this wonderful little community! I really enjoyed reading this. I’d love to hear more about your life abroad and what led you to live abroad. It’s something in my heart I am desperate to do but it doesn’t seem like it will happen at the moment. Take care and stay safe during this time, Jess x
Abigail - I love how you refer to your being here as somewhere safe to rest and wait… that’s so beautiful. I know you yearn to be back on the road and to be reunited with a life of colour and culture. I’m happy you and the girls are safe here but I know that when this is done you will get back to your adventures and they will be all the more beautiful for it. Love your images as always Kirsty. Stay Safe. xxxx
Hollie - A rollercoaster of emotion indeed. What an incredible change for your family, and beautiful captured in your art and words.
Paige Rains - You are very right about how only time will tell how this will change us all. Thank you for sharing your story and beautiful images.
Carla - Kirsty I can’t begin to imagine how massively this has changed your lives. I know you will all adapt to these new times, children especially are so wonderfully resilient – and hopefully you’ll all be away again on exciting travels sooner than you know. Sending much love xx
Diana - Firstly, I want to say thank you for being part of Artifact Motherhood and to share your beautiful words with us. I feel I know you already through following your journey, reading your captions and pictures on Instagram, but I love this post more because it is a penned letter to your daughters. Through this, I also get to learn about experiences in other parts of the world that seems to have been ignored or only briefly touched upon in the news. As heart-wrenching as it is, it shows humanity in its beauty – the talk of resilience, coping, right down to thoughts of essential workers and poorer people left behind. You shine a light on all of them and I hope that stays with you and your girls no matter where you are.
Min Mohd - Oh Kirsty, recently I watched a video on how some of the people in India had to go back to their home because of the lockdown and one family with a small baby had to walk nearly 700km just to reach their hometown. I can’t imagine the suffering and difficulty they have to face throughout the journey! And not to forget all those in a domestic violence situation, since the lockup, I have heard many new cases and some are really troubling. I wish I could do something for those families. All I can offer right now is my prayers.
I am really happy that your family are safe in England enjoying precious time with the whole family. Hoping that you’ll be back on the road soon for many more adventures!! Take care my friend. XX